What is it that is important?

I spent Sunday with my parents because my Dad, while he insists on outliving every doctor’s prognosis, is very clearly dying. The cancer treatments have prolonged his life, but they are not working any more. The well-muscled arms that once shovelled snow off the driveway as if it were just heaps of Styrofoam are now just bones held together by skin and sinew and a walk just as far as the condominium’s garden takes a lot of energy. He sits in one of the chairs in the shade and waits for my mother to come back from her walk down into the Don Valley where they now live.

But there’s a lot about him that hasn’t changed.

When I told him that one of the attractions of Miramichi (where I’ve applied for a job) is that it is very close to the ocean, he insisted that there’s a great chunk of the province of PQ between Miramichi and the ocean. I was about to tell him that he was wrong, thought about it and said “I guess I’m not remembering it right then.” He must have expected me to argue, so he repeated it in a more forceful tone. I looked at him and said “Do you really want to fight?” He almost smiled when he said no

After he finished his coffee, he disappeared into his den. My mum said he as probably having a nap. As it turns out, he wasn’t – he came back with a map of the Atlantic Provinces and a very rare apology.

My dad had been forced to start working when he was 16 years old. By that time he’d already helped his mother and baby brother make their way from a city that was about to be bombed out to a safer place, walking at night, sleeping in ditches by day and spending weeks on foot bouncing back and forth between enemy lines. When they did reach safer territory, like many other internal refugees, he was put to work on a farm. The city boy learned to hitch horses to farm wagons and to harvest hay.

When the war was over, there was no schooling to be had for those who had missed the schooling they should have had. So, he read books and watched others and taught himself whatever he needed to know as he went along.

The skill he was proudest of was mathematics. And he was well-known as an amateur chess master both to his colleagues and in the Scarborough neighbourhood where we lived. He traded those skills: piano lessons for his kids from a high school music whiz who really wanted to improve his chess skills. When we moved to Willowdale, he did the same –chess lessons for the church organist in exchange for piano lessons for his kids.

My dad is still brilliant at mathematical puzzles – he has the kind of mind that would have led him into engineering under different circumstances. Instead, he worked as a machinist – proud of the fact that he sometimes had to correct the engineers.

He wanted his sons to get the best education possible and did everything he could to help them. Learning, school, education: it’s all important to him.

Meanwhile, my mum has also recovered somewhat – it seems that her dementia was more likely delirium: her medications have been changed recently and she seems more “with it.” I did something I’d never done in all my struggles with education and endorsement. I told her how dreadfully disappointed I was that that I had lost my denominational validation.  And then I told her that I was currently considering a denominational switch. I was so surprised that she was happy to hear that.

As important as my education has been, putting it to real use is even more important to me. I know I have a gift and I want to – NEED to use it. My parents’ gifts were diminished by earthly powers beyond their control.

My Spirit wrestling has resulted in changes beyond any I’d have foreseen – and now I need to pay back, by not hiding my light under a bushel.

TBTG

A Strange Lenten Discipline

I stopped singing five months ago.
It wasn’t deliberate – I just could not sing.

I stopped singing at the same time as I stopped laughing.
Whether I sang or laughed – I ended up in tears

So I stopped.
There were already enough tears in my day

For the next 40 days, instead of giving up something,
I am going to take up something.
I am going to find something that will make me laugh out loud once a day and I am going to find something to sing once a day
Wouldn’t it be lovely to put joy back into a world that has become so joyless?
And so I begin with a poster of sorts compiled two years ago using images that were captured six or seven years ago
The Joy of the One-Man Band

Opening Night

I can hardly believe it!
My first ever photo exhibition opens tonight! It will be up for the entire season of Lent and Holy Week.
“Stone Cold Journey: A Canadian Stations of the Cross” is a figurative interpretation of the scriptural “Stations of the Cross,” using the Gospel of John.
I did allow myself to stray into Mark for one image because his vision of the death of Christ is so much more powerful

For now: Just one photo. This one does not appear in the exhibition itself. It’s the image I chose for the poster that will be sent out to the synod, seminary and other churches later this week.

Like the 14, “Mourning” is a winter image, for Lent is a winter journey in so many waysImage

ST. JACOB’S MARKET FIRE

The news this morning was devastating for this community in that the market has provided a good income for many local artisans and farmers and good healthy food for folks in the area.  It was a also wonderful tourist attraction and meeting place for the community.  Many times i bumped into familiar folks and exchanged the news of the day in the way my predecessors have for generations.

Fortunately, many vendors do have other retail locations throughout Waterloo Region.

Here is where you can find some of them:

Brady’s Meat and Deli – local, certified organic, natural drug-free and specialty meats,
8-465 Phillip Street
Waterloo, ON
519-885-3390
http://bradysmeats.com/

Finest Sausage & Meat Ltd

519-743-6481

1575 Victoria St N, Kitchener, ON N2B 3E6

 

Charles Quality Meats

abbatoir: halal; beef: chemical free, antibotic free; goat: chemical free, antibotic free; lamb: chemical free, antibotic free; rabbit: chemical free, antibotic free; veal: chemical free, antibotic free

1448 Wilby Road
St. Agatha, ON
N0B 2L0
(519) 886-7931
and Kitchener Farmers’ Market 300 King St. East Kitchener

Hilltop Acres Poultry– Beautiful free-range poultry
1501 Maple Bend Rd
Bloomingdale, On
519-743-6884
http://www.hilltopacrespoultry.ca/

Almadina Woodstone Oven & Grill
330 The Boardwalk, Waterloo, ONWaterloo, ON
Phone: 1.519.603.8111
Email: info@almadinacuisine.com

Caudles Catch Seafood -Amazing, Fresh seafood
Kitchener Market
Bauer Lofts
Seafood Superstore: 60 Otonabee Drive, Kitchener, Ontario
519-894-0442
http://www.caudlescatchseafood.com/home

Nauman’s Farm – Fresh fruit & vegetables
3250 Hessen Strasse R.R. #1
St. Clements, Ontario N0B 2M0
519) 699-5524
http://www.naumanfarm.com/

Cupcakes! Cupcakes! Cupcakes!- making delicious treats!
http://www.marketcupcakes.com/
marketcupcakes@gmail.com

Edgar & Irene Gingerich Maple Syrup products
Drayton, On
669-2084

Kitchen Kuttings – Summer Sausage, Jams and preserves, cheese!
2 Arthur Street South
Elmira, Ont
519-669-8225
http://www.kitchenkuttings.com/

If you have a favourite vendor, feel free to add it in the comments – Let’s rebuild this amazing community!

 

The St. Jacob’s Market posted this to their Facebook page on September 2, 2013:

We lost the main food building at the Market to a fire early Labour Day morning. Thanks to all the firefighters who came out to help us. They did a great job in making sure the fire didn’t spread to other buildings on the property. We are very grateful that no one was hurt.

Our hearts go out to all of the great vendors in that building. Many of them were there since the building opened back in the late 1980’s. There is a long road ahead, but we will build a new home for your businesses.

We have a huge outdoor market, and another indoor food and flea market building, and our hope is to keep it open this week. At this very early stage, we can’t give a definite answer on that, but please stay tuned for further updates.

A big THANK YOU to everyone who has reached out to us this morning. We have always said that the market is not the buildings. It’s the people – the vendors, customers, the whole community. We’re very humbled by the sense of ownership and pride that so many people have for this market. We will bring it back!


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Free Spirit? I Wish!

I have been in limbo again for several weeks – such a painful place to be. I do not know whether the powers-that-be will permit me to stay in the process. 
The issue at hand is that I am “too much of a free spirit.”
Don’t I wish!! 
The Holy Spirit has been in charge more often than not. When things have gone “wrong,” it’s usually because I was impatient or scared and tried to take charge. 
Oddly enough, it has been at the times when I have been on the verge of throwing in the towel that I get the clearest messages not to; like the completely unexpected phone call from a pastor who said “I just this instant thought of you” or the one from a seminary colleague who said “I’m in town. Let’s go for coffee.”

This past week, I was struggling with the third of three sermons in deliberately different styles in a “might as well go out with a bang” mood. And then, when I really needed the writing time, came a series of three phone calls from the hospital to attend families and friends of patients who’d just died. Each attendance provided clear gospel messages to the law/trouble messages in my sermon. Each one was a clear “don’t give up” message for me too. 

In the end, the sermon came together so clearly that it was a complete “Holy Spirit in Charge” situation.

The Sunday morning service itself was amazing. My cantor/assistant was of the rare “ought-to-be-on-stage” variety that I just wanted to hug. 

Here’s the funny thing in all of this: My hearing aid was out of order so my hearing was badly reduced. (Out of order because I had managed to drop the more vital of the two into a just extinguished column-candle so that it was totally immersed in molten wax just as I hit the sack on the night before.)
The announcements there are done at the end of the service. At the end of the announcements I said “thank-you for allowing me to worship with you” – I hadn’t planned to, and it just came out (which was so cool, so totally “Spirit in charge”). Because my hearing was at about 25%, the next sound I heard made me think it was raining! I actually looked at the window first and then back at the congregation. When I saw their hands, I realized what was up. What a surprise! I don’t remember ever being applauded in church. They were thanking me, as a group, for having joined them! 
And then, once again — someone had to remind me to ask for birthdays and anniversaries because I had forgotten :/
Everyone looked around and around and then Spirit in charge said: “why don’t we sing happy unbirthday to us” – They loved it – hmmm I guess that will have been recorded too! 

Today, I will admit my anxiety level is up a little again as I go back into waiting mode. But I have the memory of yesterday’s service to remind me that I am on the right track. If the earthly-powers-that-be here reject me, I will be looking for another that won’t.

In the meantime, I am once again couch-surfing so that my minimal income can be used to slowly pay off the debt I accumulated over the four years at school, and to keep up with the weekly counselling sessions that are helping me deal with those underlying issues that sometimes cause me to try to take charge. 

Free Spirit – yeah, right! If only…